"Wake up, im only asking the obvious"
Do you ever sit and wonder about what could have been?....
Of course you do....
Id be a liar if I said I didn't. What if I'd never left for the Navy. What if I'd grown a pair and tried to hold on to someone I knew I was losing. Ive been kind of focused on this stuff all weekend for some reason. Would I be collecting a fat BP claim like some of my friends? Probably...but would i feel as fulfilled as I do in my life right now?...Doubtful. I'd been blind to everything that I didnt want to believe for a really long time, and i think it stunted my growth as a person. Im less prone to bullshit now, more likely to speak my mind (when necessary, of course) and, for some reason or another, a little more protective of myself. All of which are good things, but it just makes me wonder.
So ive been thinking of writing a story. A grand story about my different encounters, love interests and shenanigans. But loosely based of course. Add a little here, scratch a little there. Im not going for the most exciting story. Im just painting of reality and calling it something else. Anyways, I think it will be good. Im still trying to thing of a name....All ive thought of so far is My 13 deadly excuses. Why 13? i dont know, just sounded like a good number. But all of this being said. Forgive spelling errors, bad grammar and whatever off the wall things that happen in association. No real names will be used (maybe)....and it wont go in any particular order. It'll be interesting, that i can promise.
Have a good night <3
