Blog time!
Ill skip the oversided font with something meaningful today. Im just not feeling it. So today i passed my comp exam. That test has been bogging my mind down for a while now. Its a great lift off of my shoulders. I had a small devil on my shoulder telling me that it was okay to fail, I could always be an IT. No, I cant be an IT. Im tired of settling for second best and not taking what is mine. Ive done it for too long.
Before i went to Japan last year I started watching a video blog on Youtube. This guy who goes by BLKUNK. He gave his perspective of his life in Japan and the struggle of a white boy in a asian mans world. And since it was more interested in what fun things to do in Japan i kind of blew it off. Recently I was on Youtube and started watching his videos again. His struggle is similar to mine....sort of. I know what i want to do in life. I just dont know if i have the strength to get there. Being me isnt easy. I feel a constant need to cause a little chaos in my life regardless of wether i do it with or without me actually knowing. And its terrible because I feel like im losing one of my best friends. It can be a lot to handle sometimes.
On a brighter note im feeling a sudden spark of inspiration from my latest trip to New Orleans and my test being over. My mind isnt clouded by ELINT at the moment so i feel more open to studying my japanese book. Or just catching up on reading in general. I love reading. You know, i never used to enjoy reading. It wasnt until I got older did I want to read. Its weird how life works like that. I find it more of an escape than playing videogames or watching movies used to be. I suppose this means im growing up, but i'd rather not tackle that beast yet.
Enough rambling for one night. Hopefully you'll hear from me soon. For now, just let this burn and we can see where it goes from there
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