Some days I really wish I could just shut my brain off. Its
these days that make the weight of the world seem almost unbearable. And why? Because
im unfulfilled in my life. I want to be, but im not. Someone told me today, “Sean,
your problem is you need to make everyone happy.” Naturally, I disagreed and
made some sort of excuse as to why I didn’t. The reality of it all is that I
really do. In every sense of the word I do. And with that I spread myself too
thin among a lot of my friends. I wish it weren’t so but that’s just how it is.
It’s a daily struggle to manage my time enough to fit in everyone that needs
it, along with get in those people that I want in there. It leaves little time
for myself where im not compulsively checking my phone or responding to
something on social media/email. I made a promise to myself this morning that I
was going to do one thing that I really wanted to do today. Whether with
someone or by myself, it was going to happen. I went to Hogs with my roommate,
had a really good dinner, and came home. I needed it. It’s the little things
like that which allow me to keep some shred of sanity. As I sit and think about
all of this the best part of it was the actual food. I had some chicken fingers
and the brunswich stew. (if you haven’t tried it then stop what youre doing and
go get this stew. Its good.) Someone about eating these two things really put
me at ease for a minute. With the passing of my grandmother this morning and
the crash and burn of my love life, food is going to play a more central role
and calming me down and putting me in my place. It got me thinking about
something after that, What is the
ultimate comfort food??.. Its something that I want to discover and will
hopefully be able to share with all of you in the upcoming however long it
takes. I want this to be something that benefits not only myself but all of
those that like to drown their sorrows in a tub of ben and jerrys, or in that
large pizza from papa johns. And at the very least, I want to entertain you and
let you watch me grown back in to the sassy scoundrel that you know and most of
you love. Ill do my best to not bash any exes or get too far off the beaten
path, but I make no promises. Tomorrow is a new day and with it we’re all going
to learn something.
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